My Dad's Surgery

I had not posted in awhile. But i will try to remember and give you the highlights. My Dad had surgery Tuesday Oct 13 2009. this will be his 5th surgery in the same spot. He has had problems since the beginning but I hope this newest one will do the trick. The Doctor was very upset and very blunt. He told us minutes before surgery that because of the previous four surgeries and the health and weight my dad was in, that he very well could not come out of this surgery alive. Well that started me crying to the Lord inside. I saw my dad get very worried and My brother started sobbing. I felt I had to be strong so just a couple of tears came out. But i can tell that some one was praying for me. Because of my past history with Anxiety and panic attacks ( which i no longer have, Thanks to my Lord) People often think that I will pass out (which I did once) go into shock, cry uncontrollably, or have one or all of the above. But I just knew that I had once again had someone praying for me. Because I had a PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING. Praise be to the Lord Jesus Christ.

Carly Jo 16 years young

Carly Jo's 16Th Birthday. WOW I cant believe it was 16 years ago I almost died giving birth to her. She is just a joy to have as a child. She is everything that you would want to have as a daughter. She is being home schooled. She is with me mostly 24/7. She helps me so much with my baby Elizabeth. She is my left hand. lol. Carly Jo makes her Father lunch, makes supper, washes our clothes, cleans the house, helps take care of her Grandfather, takes care of me when I am sick. And she gets no pay for any of these things. She does however get everything she needs and wants.

I am very disappointed in not being able to have a "Sweet 16" party for her. We had one for my older Daughter Felisha and it was huge. Cost about $3 to 4 thousand dollars. And for us to not be able to make one for Carly Jo just makes me sick to my stomach. It guilt's me. I know she understands because she is just that kind of person, but it just is not right. What made us not able to make her one? There are lots of reasons. 1. My children are no longer working what they use to, They helped a lot with Felisha's. 2. We have the new and happy expenses of our new baby Elizabeth. 3. I vowed not to ask for sponsors because of a huge (I cried for days!!)disappointment in a person making me feel guilty for asking. 4. My husband is not working the hours he use to. I still want to make her something. Maybe we will celebrate it in March or April when income tax money comes. who knows. Maybe even a "Sweet 18" Party. God I put it in your hands.

I know those of you with daughters will understand. Its not just "another" birthday party. Its the fact that. I am proud of her for being who she is. To celebrate her new young lady years to come. The fact that she has not gotten pregnant. And she is a Christian godly young lady. She is a servant of God and to us. I want all to celebrate with me her years and her years to come. It hard to explain all the reasons why. But some of you will understand and some will not. And that's okay. I did celebrate my boys also. It was not as elaborate as Felisha's because they thought that was "just for girls" but they had a DJ and food, family and fun. pray for this situation for me.